The PAUSE between push and procrastination

It's early morning and I'm abitious...I have meditated, enjoyed nourishing movement, and journaled. I look at my calender and the temptation is to fill it up. I wait for it; the critic shows up and suggests that the push is too much. I have a list of things I'd like to get done, but I want to do the things that feel the best first. Sometimes I run out of time focusing on the decisions. I get stuck in the pause between push and procrastination. I wonder if there is such a thing as balance? I wait. I sit. I breathe...and I ask, what do I need in this moment? To feel accomplished? To nurture the part of me that really needs to rest? To get a snack? All of these are valid needs, so I decide to start with the basics. Get a snack and tackle one thing at a time. Let go of having to do it all in one day. And why would I do that to myself anyway? Sometimes the goal is just to simply be with what is and enjoy myself through the process. Would I rather, as spend all of my days "full of activity, buying, selling, moving? There is always more to be done, always a way from staring into the pool of where life is more than the small affairs of the mind. Why mistake this activity for meaning and turn my life into a series of tasks that can occupy all the hours of the clock leave me breathless with my sense of work left undone. And...there is always work undone. We will die with work undone. The labors of life are endless. Better that I accept the rhythms of life and know that there are times when I need to STOP to draw a breath, no matter how great the labor before me." Kent Neuburn On Lonlieness and Solitutde from Simple Truths - paraphrased.